Fresh new start

Well, I apologize for that last post. I usually try to avoid blogging or posting any comments when I'm feeling that...discouraged and upset. However, last night I had an amazing...revelation, if you will. I won't share what it is because it's a bit personal, but it was an amazing feeling to have gone through--being completely and painfully aware of myself to the calming sensation that finally let me sleep. I know what I need to do to keep my end of the deal up, at least I'm pretty sure that this is something I need to do.

So, now that that confusing part has been said, to the next topic. Job hunt. I had an interview in Utah yesterday. The open position is for a sample management person. Basically what I'd be doing is organizing samples that clients send. The samples could range from diseases (like TB, HIV, Hepatitus, etc) to samples of drugs. I'm not saying this as if I have the job. In fact, they were still going to be doing interviews for a few more, if not a lot more, people. I believe they have two openings. I have a feeling I'm not going to be getting this job, but I'm okay with that because, while they have an opportunity to change departments after six months and I could move on to a data analysist position, it's still not what I'm looking for. I think if they call me back to offer me the job I will take it. It will be hard because it puts me that much farther away from getting back to Washington, but it's a job that will give me money that can make it closer. And, while it's hard, I can still do job hunts in my spare time. I'll just have to wake up earlier and stay up later. The hardest part about this is that I won't be near Paul. Unless by some miracle he asks me to marry him (which I'm still not sure I want because I want to marry him for the right reasons not because I'm away from him).

Anyway, I better get going on the job hunt or else I'll waste the rest of today like I've been doing of late. Vacation time is over. My next job is to find a way in to my career!