I wish I had a million dollars $$$

Well, just another update because I'm anxious, nervous, and all those bad things that don't do well for life. I spent yesterday couchridden because I hurt my back. I'm too stressed. But no worries, all is better and I can move around again. I'm counting down the days until I'm supposed to head out to Washington and the numbers get smaller and smaller and yet I still don't have anything. I've had a few calls from people inquiring about me being their roommate but I said no to the guys and the other one I can't afford until I have a job, because she wants a deposit plus the first month's rent. Yes, I knew moving would be expensive and I knew some places would ask for a deposit but I didn't think I would be paying for two months worth of rent and not even be guarenteed the two months. I'm scared. Yet I'm still excited. I've applied for some regular, run-of-the-mill jobs (actually Payless and a few other retail stores). I'm sending an application in by mail that is for a government position. That's one I'd rather have over Payless because I'd actually get some editing experience. Still no word from my uncle (who isn't a bishop but in a bishopric) about any of the singles in his ward needing a roommate, but I do have permission to go stay with another of my grandma's brothers who lives in Washington for a couple of days so I can find something. I'm hoping to stay for a week so I have a place to look go home to after looking at/for apartments and finding a job.

The reason I wish I had a million dollars is so I could just go and get my own apartment. It's scary to try and find something with someone when you're not sure if they'll be compatible. Besides, I don't have a job to give people the security that I can pay rent. It just doesn't cut it when you say "I have saved money" and all that jazz because that's not security. Nor do I dare tell people how much I have saved because that's just plain personal. If I had a million dollars I could just buy my own townhouse or condo or something like that and be done with it. Then I'd still have money to just use while I spend my time writing for fun. I'd still want to work because sitting at home all the time is a very boring job (take it from someone who has done so for a month now).

Here's to hoping things work out for however they're supposed to work out, because I'm assuming my way is the wrong way.

Back on down...

So, as of today, nothing big has happened. No news. No word. No nothing. I at least thought I'd hear something back from my uncle, but it looks like that might not happen and I'll have to put forth more effort to get ahold of him. Which I'm so willing to do as this is all for me to go out and do something I've been wanting to do. And I suppose I thought I might at least get some sort of rejection notice from places, but I suppose that doesn't happen in the real world. Only for writing, and I'm not even sure everyone does that. Other than that I've not been doing anything. I'm trying to help my dad sell a van (if you happen to know anyone looking for a good van, go ahead and send me a comment, it's a pretty nice van!) and help them remodel the basement bedroom (which was supposed to be enticement for me to stay here instead of move away) by keeping things a little more organized than usual. Sorry there's really nothing new to report. I wish there was, believe me I do. But I guess I'll just spend my time writing and trying to sell some of that stuff, good stuff, mind you, not blogs like this. (and ewww, my sister and her boyfriend are "wrestling" on the couch--it's actually him tickling her and her telling him to stop.)

Looking up!

So I know it's a bit soon for me to be posting already as nothing has really happened in the past twenty-four hours that would seem to be exciting. Well, my grandma, who has a brother that lives in the Seattle area, has finally given me contact information so I can talk to him. He's (and I find this ironic that you mentioned to do this, Tasha) the bishop of a Single's ward in Seattle and knows girls that are looking for roommates. So that's one less task I have to worry about! Well, I mean, I still have to worry, but it shows that things do start looking up, even on cloudy days like today. I'm excited to get to know family I've never met before and get where I want to. I'm excited to have things start to work out. Hopefully I'll be contacted by the end of the week from one or more of the internships I've applied to. (Or I might just have to go work at Home Depot to earn some extra cash...) I'm actually hoping that if an internship doesn't work out that a job at Barnes and Noble will! I love bookstores and would DIE to work in one! I've applied every summer since I started college and have never been able to get a job with one, but as it's getting closer to Christmas, seasonal hiring is just GRAND! :D Well, that's about it for now.

Life Update

Well, I thought I'd give everyone a current update of what's been going on in my life. I have recently applied for three internships and a job at Barnes and Noble, all in Washington--the Seattle area, to be precise. I'm hoping something works out. I know I'm only on four of what will turn out to be a million applications, but we can still hope that something will work out!

Right now my biggest concern is finding a place to live. Everything I thought would work out hasn't yet. So that's my annoyance right now. I'm hoping to find a two-three bedroom apartment with roommate(s). I'd like to have my own bedroom and bathroom--though the latter I can deal without--as well as some people that are generally clean. I like clean. I'm looking for cheap but I doubt that will happen. It's crazy hard trying to find a job in a different state not knowing if you can find somewhere that will help you make the bills or if you're going to have to work two or three jobs. I'm pretty sure I'll be doing at least two jobs (hopefully one will be an internship so I can start getting experience (hehehe! I almost put XP)). I'm also hoping my second job will be full time and pay well but flexible on the hours so I can do the internship part, as that is my biggest priotiry. I might have to take on cleaning people's houses...I wonder if that pays well.

Anyway, I'm still keeping up as much hope as I can. Life will certainly move on no matter what. I just hope it goes a little like I would like it too...though I'm not keeping up much hope for that.

Job Hunting

Well, so far I've had no luck in finding a job. In fact, I'm almost thinking I'm bound to work as an intern just for the ability to get my foot in the door. If that happens, oh well. I'll just have to work another or two side jobs in order to get my own place. In the meantime, I'll still be busy looking for jobs. I might have to start getting some hints from our newly employed friend, Tasha! She had great innovation to go out and find something and she ended up getting something she wanted. I know she worked hard because everytime I got the chance to talk to her she was just getting ready to run to another job interview. I am scared to get to that level...which is part of the reason I've been half looking for a job and half just enjoying life and travelling.

Speaking of travelling, I've just returned from Seattle where I had a great time with Paul as we celebrated his birthday. I hope he had as great a time as I did--even if he did have to work. While he was busy earning money I was busy making a portfolio for myself. Great fun. Let me tell you. I learned that for what I want to go into for a career spending time working on a portfolio is of the greatest benefit for myself. So here I work hard and get frustrated as I can't choose what to put in my portfolio because NOTHING I've written is really finished and it's just a lot of hard work. Oh well, though. I'll work hard, still. Following Tasha's grand example and make things work out for me. That's about all that has happened to me in the past week.